Since March, Luke has been making tremendous breakthrough in the defeat of Autism! Among other things, Luke has been enjoying his brother Max more as a friend (and other social breakthroughs), he has begun to understand the concepts of emotions (happy, sad, scared, etc.), he has spontaneously told me that he loves me, he has been hugging and kissing (he used to despise this), and his language and understanding has grown in leaps and bounds (so noticeably that his teacher and teacher's aides cannot help but comment constantly)! Praise God the Father and our Lord Jesus Christ! He is faithful! Please continue to pray for Luke’s hyperactivity to be calmed, and that he would continue to be made whole!
I was encouraged by the account of Abraham in Genesis. When the Lord told Abraham that he would be the father of nations, Abraham “believed and it was credited to him as righteousness.” Abraham then waited 13 years from that point before Isaac was to come. Thirteen years!!! Abraham believed. Although MY faith may fail me and I become weak and let the lies of this broken world get to my heart, still I will press on and the Spirit inside of me will turn my eyes again to the cross. Yes, the cross. That is where my sins were paid for once for all. His blood was poured out for more than salvation. His blood was shed for our healing. Jesus was constantly healing the people that He came in contact with… physically, emotionally, and spiritually. Jesus cares about the WHOLE man.
In March, when my eyes were opened to the power that is in the NAME of Jesus Christ for Luke’s healing, I had an encounter with the Lord. I was reading an encouraging book of modern-day testimonies of those who were miraculously healed by Jesus. The book either prompted me to do so, or by my own will, I closed my eyes and imagined a scene. I saw in my mind’s eye, a crowd of people pressing toward Jesus to gaze at him as he walked through their streets. I was in the back of the crowd and He had already passed this place. I held Luke by his waist, hoisted him up and cried out desperately, “Jesus, heal him!!!!!!!” Immediately, Jesus turned toward us with the most peaceful love in His eyes. His voice was strong and confident as He proclaimed, “You are healed. And he is healed.” And with each phrase, Jesus had stretched out His hand and gestured toward the top of my head, and then the top of Luke’s head. And in that moment, Luke turned around in my arms – gazed at me with such knowing in his eyes that I had never seen before – and embraced me. Then pulling away from me, he took a second look deep into my eyes and then hugged me tightly again. This was my “vision.” And I believe that it was from the Lord, mostly because I would never have thought of such an odd scene on my own.
Well, praise be to God for what He has begun! Because He will finish what He has started!
“…being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.” Philippians 1:6
I did not know what that vision meant, exactly. But have held it in my heart because it was so powerful and encouraging. I know a little more of what the Lord was trying to convey. Besides the upfront meanings: Jesus will never leave anyone behind who is sincerely believing Him for healing – He will always turn to tend to them; and that there would be a day that Luke would look me square in the eyes and have more understanding and connection (already come to pass!!!!!); but MY healing was involved in this story.
The Lord is good and He is patient. He has endured much from me and He is long-suffering in that respect. God has been revealing to me – as gently as a loving Father – that I need to put out anger and rage from my life. This is not pleasing to Him, He has better for me, and better for my household. As I am being HEALED of this deep-rooted sin, Luke (and Max and Jacob and myself!) will benefit. As you can imagine, I am quite emotional and dramatic. :) I often let my emotions do the disciplining and this is not right, nor is it godly. By means of several – and I mean several – learning experiences and words of wisdom imparted to me, I am learning the value of being even-tempered and clear-headed as I discipline the boys. This is part of MY healing!!!! Yes, Jesus said that I would be healed as well. And I can see clearly that this ties into the full healing of Luke. Yes! He must have a “safe” place to learn, grow and heal. May the Spirit of the living God come to dwell in this house like a thick cloud! And may my heart overflow with the love of Jesus Christ even in discipline! Thank You, God, for Your love and patience with me! He’s not through with me yet!
So as I move forward – believing with all of my heart that God’s Word is true – may I hold fast to the truth that does not change like shifting shadows. If I must wait 13 years as Abraham did, or 120 years as Noah did, or until the end of my days, I will trust that the Lord is working out healing for His beloved. His plan and purposes are higher than mine. His love is greater than my heart could ever know. The name of the Lord is Jehovah Rapha – the Lord, my Healer. I know Him and He knows me.